马上就是新闻系成立十周年了,而我已经在这个新闻系苟活了三年了。三年前填志愿的时候,这个学校和这个专业都是我的第一志愿,我一直不敢说出来,因为我觉得是一种耻辱。毕竟和许多调剂过来的人比,我的专业成绩是无法直视的。当初也并不知道什么“无冕之王”,只是因为“学新闻”这仨字听起来特牛逼,而且不怕谁笑话,我当时还有真有那种“改变世界”的新闻理想和抱负,其实这是一个不经过大脑思考的傻子的傻抱负。我高三的时候,有一次指着《新闻联播》里主持人对我爸妈说,我以后就坐这儿,把我妈乐的,夸我有志气——简直too young too simple!
后来,我就进了的新闻系,又是西科青梅,又是学生实习平台龙新通讯社,又有一个经历丰富又负责任的系主任,当时心里就四个字:太牛逼了!我就庆幸自己运气好,遇到的班主任、系主任都是负责任的老师。
再后来,待得愈久愈是发觉,现在流的泪都是当年脑子进的水,这是真理。
三年了,我学会了什么?我也说不清。关于专业知识,我自认为连个皮毛都没学会,很羞愧。不过至少在这三年中思想成熟了一些,知道了读书的可贵,学会了思考,认清这个社会的许多丑恶面,当然这些改变一部分是由于自年龄的增长,另一部分不得不说是我在新闻系学到的。然而,思想的成熟带来的是对现实的恐惧和逃避,我不知道这是进步还是倒退。两年前我还在想以后做个记者啥的,现在的我对当记者是拒绝的。大多有新闻理想的记者,拿着买白菜的工资,操着卖白菜的心。真正的理想,大多都站在了金钱的对立面上。我不想做记者,并不是因为怕自己受不住诱惑,只是我每天都懒得读新闻,更别说写新闻了。每天都有大量的信息需要消化实在是太累,这样寿命会缩短吧。
总之,新闻系很厉害,就算有很多不足,也遭人质疑,在我心里它还是很厉害。我很幸运能较为顺利的苟活了三年,只是由于我自身的原因让这份好运气变成了我生活的累赘和折磨。希望我能顺利地苟活这四年,只要四年,不能再多!
姬亚亚:我和我的专业
When I was a little girl I am crazy about a black box, you know, it's television. I usually think I can speak in the screen, because I think it's so cool and I figure everyone has the dream to show yourself to all of people. Therefore, I made a choice about my future that I want to be a host. When I was faced with college entrance examination, I think I must follow my heart, just one more time. Finally, I convince my folks to support me to study the presiding, but they went back quickly after a while, because they also think steady art will no future. So, I just continued to study hard in order to pass the examination, but I never give up this crazy dream. When I filled out the form of application, I choose the Television Broadcasting Science, because this major's name has a word--television, it's I am crazy for, and this time my folks were not opposed.
But, when I really start to study this major, I think I was wrong, I had a big mistake, I suspected I was cheated by this major, because the course we studied between the major's name was not correlated, so I figure television this word is an ornamental in the name, and in fact, he should be called the journalism. Yep, for as you see, my major tricked me like a brutal fraud, and my dream broken again and again.
Now, after three years of study, I seemly to be a bit in love with this major although I still don't understand a thing and I will not work in this industry about the journalist, speak the truth, I feel I learn so much knowledge and gain so much skills in this major, for instance, it teach me how to analyze the problem stand in an objective stance, how to treat everyone fairly, how to be a person of integrity. This knowledge not only belongs any subject, but also is useful in every step in your life.
Finally saying is, for my subject, I just want to say thanks. Although it not decides my job in the future, it has some impact for my choice, when I am given choose between the true and the false, my subject will tell me to choose the true; when I am given choose between the emotional and the rational, my subject will tell me to choose the rational; when I am given choose between the bravery and the cowardice, my subject will tell me to choose the bravery; then, this choose will become my life, the life is always affected by my subject.